A Fresh Start

I have had a better today than yesterday. I have had a few things that are really laying heavy on my heart-we will see where they go. I started Beth Moore's book "To Live is Christ" and I think that it will be beneficial to my spiritual life. I have really entered (what seems like to me to me, anyway) a new area of spiritual growth in my life. I am truly beginning to see the lost around me as desperate for hope, hope that I have. It is exciting and scary at the same time. Exciting because I am rejoicing at being a part of God's magnificent plan; but on the same hand afraid because I am such a frail, fragile human. I have noticed recently many small things that I do that are so un-Christlike. It makes me ashamed because I label them as things "everybody does" as if that makes it acceptable. Oh, how quick I am to forget that I have a higher calling! I really believe that if I saturate every part of my life with Christ it will be impossible for me to not draw others to Him.
It is just bridging the gap between my laundry pile-Monk watching-Craigslist searching alter ego and the part of me that wants to radiate Scriptural principles. Moore opens her book by talking about the "rituals" for lack of a better term that were part of every dedicated Jew's life. It really made me want those things for myself, intense Scripture memorization, a sense of separation from worldly thoughts and desires. Wearing Scripture in a box on my forehead would really make me stand out, that is for sure! All this said, I want to take things slowly. I don't want a New Year's resolution that is gone by February. I want a life change, but I think, no I know that God can do that for me. It will be interesting to see how it goes and I challenge anyone who reads this to hold me accountable. By actually putting it out there, I will have to hold myself accountable. This is only the beginning...